Mental Health – Continued
So, it appears that putting the CBT leaflet where I can see it every morning hasn’t helped. Months have gone by and I still haven’t done anything about it…
Today has found me feeling particularly down. No particular reason, I’ve just done nothing but sit and mope and start to self-harm again.
I hate this feeling. I don’t normally have too much trouble being ill, but that’s because I normally only get colds which a healthy dose of paracetamol will handle. Being ill, and the illness making me not bother to get the help that would make it go away… This has got me feeling more sorry for myself.
It would help, I think, if there was someone to talk to. The problem is, my best friends are all members of the Organisation. This means, if I talk to them, I put them in the difficult position where our friendship has to fight with their obligation to report safeguarding concerns. I don’t want to put them in that position, and I don’t want this to have to go to the safeguarding team. The last thing I need is someone considering me to be a vulnerable adult, not least because of my leadership role (and I don’t think I am vulnerable in the way safeguarding worries about. I am perfectly capable of looking after myself…).
Now, if cause, I’m stressing, and so can’t really sleep, which really won’t help.
Tomorrow. Tomorrow I’ll call them, and make an appointment with my GP for a follow-up.