Morale seems to have reached a nadir, again… Everything, my uni project and Organisation work alike seems to be a constant battle, and I’m just feeling so down.
I’ve been bad. I promised myself that I would make a doctor’s appointment to talk to someone about this, and I haven’t. So tomorrow, I’m going to try to force myself to get my arse in gear. Because this is getting stupid. I can’t work out if I’m feeling bad because everything is going wrong, or if it’s something else, and I’m rapidly approaching burnout. About half an hour ago I nearly withdrew my application for the Youth Leader role, swiftly followed by my notice of stepping down from my Youth role. Which is rubbish, because I love working with the kids at my unit, but at the moment I just don’t know if I can do it. Something has to give, and that may have to be the first to go. Which really sucks.
I feel like I need someone to talk to, right now, but I know it will turn in to a rant, and that’s not fair on Valentines Day, not when the people I would be talking to have loved ones to be spending time with.
So it’s time to follow my own advice, and reach out for help. Because if I don’t, I’m going to crash and burn.